ughhhh ppbltblbtlbtlbtb

i feel, like, sooooo totally gross.

i've been "bad" all weekend. i started off ok this morning, but THEN i was "bad" again at lunch.

now... NOW... i feel... oh.. so... very... guilty.

i'm a bad, BAD weight loser... i have absolutely NO follow-through.

ARGH...

why can't i DO this!?!?

I USED to do it. I was really fit (skinny, even!) a good 24/25 out of my 29 years. WHAT HAPPENED? I'll tell you what... Life happened. Well, that and my metabolism ran off to guam with my self-discipline.

you know, i start with the best of intentions, fully motivated (by external factors, because God knows, i can't INTERNALLY motivate myself),

but then... a week later, i totally crash and burn in a big, fat blaze of excess.

i need a good swift kick in the ass.

...i also need some pepto.

bleh.